In the past seventy-two hours, I have gained more insight into the difference between an “epiphany” (or as Gryph put it getting thwacked by a 2 x 4) and faith. In the immediate aftermath of my reawakening moment Thursday night, I was certain I could stick to the vows I made at that time. And now, nearly four full days later, I have succeeded. A good start, but not much of an accomplishment.
For when the glow of that moment wears off, as it is certain to wear off, I will still need to find the strength to stay true to my vow — and myself. With that thought in mind, I began to understand faith a little better. Thursday night, I saw clearly where I had gone wrong and what I needed to do to correct my past behavior.
In future days, it will not be so easy. The glow of my recent illumination will have faded. And that’s when faith comes in. I must believe that the power of that insight endures. There are times when we are certain of God’s presence and others when He seems distant. It is in those moments where we have to believe that we are on the right path — even if the divine message is not as clear as it once was.