Not in the greatest mood today and having trouble focusing. Maybe it’s that I’ve been blogging so much that the verbal side of my brain has slowed down. Kind of like how I used to feel after going on a really long run. I had to walk a bit before I could once again find my stride.
And I have a number of topics on my list of “potential blogs” and while there’s lots in the news worthy of conversation, notably McCain’s suspension of his campaign to focus on the bailout (about which I have mixed feelings).Â
Maybe I’ll be better able to blog after I do my cardio — or after I see a Reagan movie with friends. The image of the Gipper may well erase the bad movie I saw last night.
As I was fixing dinner, I decided to pop in a DVD I got in some gift bag–Denied a gay movie which, well, seemed to lack a plot. And I just didn’t feel the chemistry between the two male leads.
I probably should have ejected the DVD and put it in my giveaway pile, but I have this habit of watching movies until the end, hoping to find something redeeming in them. Anyway, after watching this flick, I felt kind of empty, almost as if I have internalized the non-communicative relationship between two two ostensible lovers who often find it difficult to communicate verbally. As if that’s how all gay men relate to one another. They have sexual relationships without human connection. Â
Even when they try to communicate at the end, they’re little more than actors reading their lines.
But, then as I was writing this post, I got a call from a close friend. Â And it reminded me of the human connections in my world. Â I immediately began to feel better.
Perhaps, the lesson of this is never watch bad movies alone.