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IN MEMORIAM: JAMES JOSEPH FERGUSON
LOST SEPT. 11, 2001

Today, eleven years after the terror attacks on America, I once again dedicate this space to my lost friend, James Joe Ferguson, who was killed aboard American Airlines Flight 77 when that plane was used as a weapon and crashed into the Pentagon. This posting goes up at the exact time that the plane was flown into the Pentagon on September 11, 2001.

We miss you, Joe.
-Bruce and John

Addendum: Most folks on 9/11 naturally think of the thousands who died in the WTC, or in the Pentagon or on Flight 93. When I reflect on this day, I immediately think of Joe and his fellow passengers on Flight 77. In some ways, they are the forgotten victims. “Truthers” insist no plane hit the Pentagon. The families of those who died on Flight 77 would beg to differ. In any case, Flight 77 illustrates how ruthless Islamic terrorists are. Imagine sitting in your seat as your plane accelerates to 500 mph but you see the ground coming up fast and you know you are going to die. That folks, is the definition of “terror”.

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The last time we had dinner, Joe told my partner John and I about how much he was looking forward to being a part of the bicentennial of the Lewis & Clark Expedition. Typically, I found myself jealous of him. In his role as Director of Geographic Education at the National Geographic Society, Joe had one of the most unique and rewarding jobs I can ever imagine having.

He traveled around the world, bringing American school children face-to-face with the natural wonders of our Earth. He was not only a teacher but also provided a critical turning point for these kids, many of whom had never before left their own neighborhoods. Joe provided the path for these students to experience things that many of us never will in our entire lives.

In addition, he got to travel to the four corners of the globe. How rewarding that must have been. How do I sign up for that job?

I got an email from Joe on Thursday, September 6, 2001. “Hi cutie” it started — typical opening line for Joe to any of his friends. He had just returned from Alaska and wanted to tell show me all the pictures, but the following week he said he was headed to California for another work trip. I printed out and kept that email for many months in my briefcase as a way to keep Joe alive.

As dawn broke on September 11, 2001, Joe called his Mom in Mississippi to give her a wake up call as he always did when he traveled. He said to her, “I’ll call you when I get to California. Have a good day.” He was that kind of person. The kind of person, who, no matter where he was and how busy he was, dropped a postcard to his friends so we could share a part of his experiences throughout the world.

At Dulles International Airport, Joe stood with his group traveling to California and took some last minute photos. He and another colleague were scheduled passengers on American Airlines Flight 77, accompanying three D.C. public school teachers and three students on a National Geographic-sponsored field trip to the Channel Islands off Santa Barbara, Calif. After the photos were taken, they bid farewell to the children’s parents and proceeded to their gate.

At 9:37AM, Joe lost his life at the young age of thirty-nine when terrorists slammed the plane into the side of the Pentagon at 500 mph. A teacher and positive role model to young Americans was taken from the world in an act of sheer violence and viciousness.

As I was dealing with the many emotions of the events of September 11, a thought crossed my mind the next day. Gosh, I thought, Joe had said he was traveling and now he’s stuck somewhere until the airlines are allowed to fly again. So I called his work number in DC and left a message. After I heard his voice for the last time, I said “Give me a call if you are checking messages.” “I hope you make it home soon,” I concluded. When I called that day, I had no idea.

It wasn’t until Friday, September 14 that I found out that one of my dearest friends had become a casualty of the attacks on America. Suddenly, this war was personal — it had hit home. I wasn’t expecting to have to go to two memorial services and walk around in a state of numbness for many weeks.

At Joe’s memorial service, there were lots of tears and lots of laughs as well. One of Joe’s friends told the gathering that Joe had this way of making you feel as if you were his best friend in the world. I knew exactly what he meant. I saw Joe every once in a while. We would have lunch, or more likely trade emails or phone calls. But every time we talked, I felt like Joe’s best friend. Joe still has a lot of best friends all around the world.

Perhaps Joe’s death hit me so hard because it was the first death of someone close to me that I had experienced as an adult. I am still surprised by the impact that his death has had, and in many ways continues to have, on my life.

In fact, I did a lot of personal reflecting in the months following 9/11. I questioned how important my job and even my life were in a time of war where terrorists could invade your workplace or your school and slaughter you with no remorse. I questioned what value and worth my own career had in comparison with a man who had chosen to teach and change the lives of young people. I felt trapped in a good job that was giving me no personal satisfaction.

All I could remember was how happy Joe always was and how that cheer was infectious to all of his friends and colleagues. I would miss that cheerful influence on me. Joe had made the choice to live life to the fullest extent possible. He was the model of the optimistic American who knows no frontiers and no bounds. He was doing more than his fair share of contributing to a better society.

My partner John and I took a trip to the American West in the summer of 2003 and followed some of the Lewis & Clark Trail. I know Joe would have loved the scenery and spirit of America that lives and breathes in the land of Montana and Wyoming. The IMAX film about the “Corps of Discovery” produced by the National Geographic Society — Lewis & Clark: The Great Journey West — was dedicated to the memory of Joe Ferguson. It is available on DVD and I strongly recommend watching it.

One day in early 2002, I heard a song on the radio that I don’t remember hearing before 9/11/2001. I didn’t even know it was LeeAnn Womack’s voice, because the words are the soul and essence of Joe Ferguson. The words are an expression of his personal passion and love of life. And the words are also an inspiration for all of us to get through the many trying days of our post-9/11 world.

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder.
Get your fill to eat, but always keep that hunger.
May you never take one single breath for granted.
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed.
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean.
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens.
Promise me that you’ll give faith a fighting chance.
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance.
Never settle for the path of least resistance.
Livin’ might mean takin’ chances, but they’re worth takin.
Lovin’ might be a mistake, but its worth makin.
Don’t let some hell bent heart leave you bitter.
When you come close to sellin’ out, reconsider.
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance.
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance.

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29 Comments

  1. What a wonderful man he must have been and you were no doubt blessed by being his friend. He is no longer here in the body, but he lives and thrives in your heart and memories. We are to mourn with those who mourn, I will say a prayer today for all.

    Comment by Linda Strickland — September 11, 2012 @ 10:08 am - September 11, 2012

  2. Beautiful, just beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

    Comment by Charles — September 11, 2012 @ 12:14 pm - September 11, 2012

  3. John and Bruce, I am so sorry for your loss. It’s hard to believe that 11 years have passed since that horrible day. I will never forget where I was when I heard the news. It’s a day that irrevokably changed me, and woke me up to the fact that yes, elections do matter. Prior to 9/11 I wasn’t paying attention.

    The star quarterback of my college football team, former Marine, Michael Horrocks was co-pilot on United Airlines Flight 175, the second plane to hit the WTC. He left behind a wife, a 9 year old daughter and a 6 year old son. The fact that someone I knew of was on one of those planes, someone I had watched play football really hit me hard. I cannot even fathom your pain. Thank you so much for sharing.

    Comment by runningrn — September 11, 2012 @ 12:30 pm - September 11, 2012

  4. This day always gives me mixed feelings. While I did not lose as much as some, it is balanced by my Godson being born 7 years ago today.

    Comment by The_Livewire — September 11, 2012 @ 12:44 pm - September 11, 2012

  5. Bruce, thanks for sharing this moving remembrance of your friend. By living a full and meaningful life, by celebrating James’s passions and achievements and by keeping him in your thoughts, you keep his spirit alive.

    I intend to watch the National Geographic documentary dedicated to his memory.

    Comment by Guy Jones — September 11, 2012 @ 1:09 pm - September 11, 2012

  6. Beautiful thoughts and cherished memories.

    While I know none of the victims, I feel a deep sadness for them each and every 9/11. I can´t bring myself to be PC in my feelings about muslims. I still believe that we are a Judeo-Christian nation and that those values should be the only values permitted in our society.

    For those gun grabbers, Senator Chuck Schuman and Mayor Bloomberg, I would remind them that the terrorists, to take over the planes, were armed with BOX CUTTERS. How about registering the sale of knives and box cutters?

    Comment by Roberto — September 11, 2012 @ 2:25 pm - September 11, 2012

  7. This tribute was aired only once

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J3eQmzw6n3k&sns=em

    Comment by rusty — September 11, 2012 @ 3:21 pm - September 11, 2012

  8. Thanks for running this, Bruce. We need to be reminded.

    Comment by SoCalRobert — September 11, 2012 @ 6:57 pm - September 11, 2012

  9. Not to spoil this with politics, but it is worth observing just how poisoned (and stupid) American politics have become. More than half of Democrats are Truthers, to some degree:

    “How likely is it that people in the federal government either assisted in the 9/11 attacks or took no action to stop the attacks because they wanted the United States to go to war in the Middle East?” the poll asked. A full 22.6% of Democrats said it was “very likely.” Another 28.2% called it “somewhat likely.”

    That is really messed up. (Note: It’s a 2006 poll… but I doubt the numbers have trended down.)

    Comment by ILoveCapitalism — September 11, 2012 @ 7:53 pm - September 11, 2012

  10. What a wonderful remembrance of your friend. I’m sorry for your loss.

    Comment by TriciaNC1 — September 11, 2012 @ 10:36 pm - September 11, 2012

  11. I was living in Vienna, VA on that fateful day, some 15 miles from the Pentagon. I can recall going outside that afternoon in the eerie quietness, except for the Air Force jets roaring overhead. The first time I knew there was a problem was when a friend of mine called me from Kansas at 9:05 AM. I did not have the TV on at the time, unaware of the horror of the two crashes into the WTC. I was numb that day and depressed for about two months after those tragic terrorist incidents. My God, I shed so many tears over the ensuing week. And three people I knew narrowly escaped their deaths. One was the sister of a friend of mine that would have been on the American Airlines flight but for a change in schedule. Another person would have been at the World Trade Center the following day, and a gay colonel in the Air Force was in the Pentagon at that instant. It was an event that transformed my life into a loathing for Islam. It was not a religion, but a political bludgeon bent on world domination. Like Communism, Fascism, and Japanese imperialism, all these ideologies are destructive and believe in conquering the world for themselves. Anyone standing in their way deserves death.

    I think the US is now on a downward path that even Romney cannot solve. The American people are too slovenly and greedy to accept changes in their lifestyle. Only when we are faced with a Greek meltdown will we come together. But until then, we are in coasting mode, much like the Romney campaign.

    Comment by davinci — September 11, 2012 @ 11:21 pm - September 11, 2012

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  28. Thank you for the tribute to your friend and all of the others. Thanks also for the lyrics, the song was new to me.
    One tribute I noted, a few years after, was the dedication of a military science fiction novel by Tanya Huff. She said: This is dedicated to the people who died going up the stairs”.

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