I realize that this whole “almost ran for Senate” thing is going to get old and I’m the last one to beat a dead horse. But someone suggested today that I write some stuff about the experience that might be interesting for other people to read. And there are some things I touched on (a bit) during the radio show that I didn’t include in the “official” blog post. Also, need I remind anyone, a blog is supposed to be for crap like this.
GayPatriot Report – March 27 edition
One of the other big reasons for not tackling the Senate campaign is my health; the majority of which deals with my decade-long struggle with clinical depression. Again, this isn’t breaking news — I’ve discussed it on the blog here in the past.
However, everyone of a certain age still remembers how mental health issues derailed the Vice Presidential candidacy of Thomas Eagleton. (And no, I haven’t had electric shock treatments!). More recently, former US Rep. Jesse Jackson, Jr. seems to have dealt with depression to some extent – as well as criminal legal problems.
The fact of the matter is — I’m not sure I will ever be “cured” of my depression. I had a really bad turn in 2010 which resulted in my life changing in ways I couldn’t imagine. This is very personal stuff to discuss, folks, and not fodder for a political campaign — in my opinion.
Anyway, despite having my medication adjusted in 2010 — I still have bad days. Well, I’d have to imagine one cannot have a “bad day” if one is running for public office. And my brain doesn’t cooperate with me now — Lord only knows what it would have had in store for me. And what people would have thought about those “bad days.”
As I mentioned on The GayPatriot Report last night, our mental healthcare system is a total mess. Since I’m not running for public office, I can even call it a clusterfuck. Thankfully, I have only had to personally be involved at a primary care level — but my previous corporate job (also mentioned on the radio) involved obtaining an in-depth knowledge of the mental health system in the USA. Did I mention it SUCKS?
Read this book: Crazy: A Father’s Search Through America’s Mental Health Madness. It involves a much more serious case of mental health than I could ever imagine dealing with. But I witnessed glimpses of this in my job. We treat our seriously mentally ill citizens in this country in our prison systems. That’s messed up.
I also mentioned last night on the radio show my struggles with back pain. There probably isn’t a day where I can sit in a chair longer than 20 minutes without being in pain the rest of the day. I have worsening arthritis in my lower spine. And yeah, that also sucks.